THE CHRONICLES

When I could not give my heart out I could not truly love and I could not say that at that time I was living. Looking back at all those times I do not think I would have ever seen myself as a person capable of letting go, but here we are, here I am and there you are. No longer whole but more complete than I was when I was alone… this is how my thoughts were shaped



I go out in search,
To make you a PARTNER,
Not a SUBORDINATE.
I invite you in; show you what you stand to gain
And ask what you have to offer,
Yet you want me to do all the ground work, all the time.
I call you a FRIEND,
Yet you want me as a SLAVE
I will not be shacked by the chains of a RELATIONSHIP
If you can not meet me halfway
Then stay on your own
I will not cross my line…
NOT YET

TIME HAS MOVED PLACES...

The month of May has come and gone and it seems like I have had so much to do, I have so little time to write. Truth be told, I indeed had little time to spend in front of the computer at all. When such a long time has gone by, a lot of events have taken place, from the very minute ‘hello’s’ to the most unexpected. But those that stay foremost on the mind are usually those that would and should and eventually have a lasting impression on the mind. I would not want to use the word ‘breakup’, I’d rather use the word (borrowed from my friend Nelson) ‘mutual separation’, Yes! I had a mutual separation from my Girlfriend this month and it is proving to be a very difficult task ‘letting go’ of the one person you really looked forward to seeing every other evening, but that is part of life and it goes on. My heart aches and at times like this I play a lot of music. When I say ‘times like this’ I mean times when I was made to leave someone I really, really liked and that has not happened often at all, actually this is like the second time technically. But I a m not going to bore you with the details of this ‘mutual separation’, rather I would like to dedicate the next couple of post to the experiences of love as gathered from experiences, mine and that of others. THE LOVE CHRONICLES. I hope you can relate to it and share in their emotions and stuff but most importantly enjoy it.
I HAVE LOVED AND I HAVE NO SHAME IN IT COS THERE IS NO GREATER FEELING IN THIS WORLD THAT COULD DRIVE A MAN TO DO THE UNTHINKABLE. TRUE FREEDOM LIES IN THE ABILITY TO LOVE AND DEMAND TO BE LOVED BACK.

Did I Piss You Off?

I am a nice guy! Statement of Fact, you could sue me for that, but I’d still be a nice guy. I’m not blowing my own trumpet or anything for that matter; it’s just the fact that the word “attitude” is now being mistaken to mean arrogance. I… OK, we all love a confident person be it in a workplace, relationship, anything or anywhere you can think of, we love confidence, either ours or that of our partner or friend or associate as long as it does not rob us of our own (confidence). Now, when and more importantly how do I know when to tune down my ‘cockiness’ to suit people whom it should suit? Who should benefit from my own confidence order than myself? Is that selfish? Everyone at one point or the other wants his or her ego to be stroked and it occurs more vividly among the male folk but even the ladies love to be ‘made up’ to look a little bigger than they actually are and every now and then she’d say, ‘how’s my hair?’, ‘did you notice my eye shadow?’ ‘You have not complimented my new boob job’. Stroke her ego, just a little every now and then but never over do it. At the end of the day, some of the flattery gets to our heads ‘OMG! I am so pretty’ and we begin to worship ourselves. Then you here ‘you are so full of yourself’ or more derogatorily, ‘you are full of shit’ and you wonder how it all started. Well I’ll let you in on a secret; the less we hear about ourselves the more we want to be heard of. It works in 2 ways, either you try too hard to please or you just get too self aware and overindulge yourself. The first may make you a saint or a fool, while the latter could make you vain or ambitious. But at the end it’s not what we all say that matters but what you BELIEVE. I hate you doesn’t make either of us a bad person so lets live and of course, let live. Did I offend you earlier? Deal with it or me. Which ever way you have a dealing to do but be sure to do it very well and… always prepare for the repercaution.