ONCE WAS ENOUGH

She said, ‘I fell in love with you but more with the idea that we were perfect’ ‘You made it easy for me to love you the; you were calm and you gave me your time’ ‘You had my time, something very few people gain’ ‘I guess it was your patience and persistence, but then, I could not have you for 2 reasons You were not available You didn’t seem to want more than what we had’. ‘I gave you a million hints, the colloquial ‘green light’, you just seemed to ignore it or maybe you didn’t get it at all, I really didn’t know.’ ‘Then those days you teased me and made me jealous. I couldn’t bear it, but I really didn’t want you to go.’ ‘It felt good to feel the way you made me feel, I really didn’t need any other person, as long as I had you even if you weren’t mine.’ ‘Then you came out of nowhere with the notion I had harboured in my heart for so long... that we should be together, as a couple.’ ‘I had waited for years and when you made the ‘proposal’, my immediate response was the acceptance and dive in your arms, give you a kiss and then slap you across the face for taking so long, but my better judgement made me test your resolve.’ ‘I refused, not because I didn’t want you, I wanted you so badly, it was pure pain but I wanted you to have a little taste of what I went through, the pain.’ ‘Your resolve was tested and I was satisfied that you wanted me ‘that much’.’ ‘You spoke sweet nonsense to me and I felt you fall deeper and deeper in love with me. I still loved you then, like I have never loved any other but the time of wanting had taken its toll on my heart. I was growing up faster than I wanted and you loved me the same way you did from the beginning.’ ‘Sadly, what was cute then was just annoying now.’ ‘Don’t get me wrong, I loved you amidst the transition I was going through but deep down I knew you wouldn’t be able to love me the way I wanted to be loved.’ ‘I just need you to know that no matter what happens I will always love you’ When she finished I looked up and smiled, then I said ‘ONCE WAS ENOUGH’